As I Lay Me Down To Sleep

This amazingly was written in a spur of a moment & was finish after 10 minutes.

As I lay me down to sleep
I pray oh God, let me wake in the morning
And if it should be that I shall not see
The rise of the morning sun
Then I pray oh God
Received my soul
And lead me to the place
Where I could rest
Where in heaven I lay
With tears no more
With vanished pain
With disappeared sorrows
Where the earth problem
No more
No matter

As I lay me down to sleep
I pray oh God,
That if I should not wake in morning yonder
That the words of my heart
The thoughts of my mind
The feelings of my soul
Shall not perish
That despite all believes
Despite all anger
Despite all wrongs
Despite all boundaries
That those closest to me
Will know
That they matters
That I cared

As I lay me down to sleep
If I should not see another tomorrow
My only word
Only sentences
Would be
“I love You My Families”
“I love You My friends”

Visit to Connaught Bridge Power Station

Me and 2 of my dear friends visited Connaught Bridge Power Station (CBPS) on the 14th-24th April 2008. In capturing my experience there, this is what I have written but from a perspective of a camera. Before the story begins, below is the picture of CBPS early in the morning, beautifully captured by Rose.

Let me begin by introducing myself. I am Minolta Dimage A1. Well, if you’ll are wondering, yes I am a camera. I had a blast from 14-24th April 2008 while my owner, Rosilawati & her friends, Roobee & Eng had the opportunity to visit Connaught Bridge Power Station (CBPS). Now let me share with you my experience and bring you’ll on a tour of Connaught Bridge from the perspective of my lenses.

Come to think of it, lets take a step back. In the midst of my eagerness to begin I believe I should introduced you’ll to my owner. That’s Rosilawati and her friends.
Noticed the 4 tower of Open Cycle at the back. Nice, eh?

As this is my 1st time in a power station, I was exhilarated. I was absorbing as much sound, sight & knowledge as possible. Our training encompasses a series of briefings and tour on various aspects of the power station such as the Central Electrical Control Room (CECR), Water Treatment Plant, Mechanical Maintenance and ECNI. It was meant to be a holistic experience to help us familiarized with the running of a power station.

I will now briefly walk you’ll through various pit stop, each with its own interesting stories. Excited? Our 1st stop would be the Central Electrical Control Room. As the name suggest, it is the hub to control all aspects of the power plant. Did I say hub? Heart is more like it. I think I am getting dizzy just by looking at all those controls and screens.

I was rather busy trying to comprehend the functions of all the screens. All these screens assist people to monitor different aspects of the plant. The 1st screen for example shows the temperature of the gas turbine. The following screens shows monitoring of the open cycle gas turbine & steam turbine.

Now, let us move on. Another interesting stop would be the Water Treatment Plant. There were numerous tanks for different stages of water processing. Somehow, when I reach the Cation & Anion tank, the thought of cats & fishes crosses my mind. I wonder…?
Ahem, on a more serious note, the function of the water treatment plant is to ensure water is treated for boiler water and before releasing the water back into the Klang river. Well, let us move along to the next pit stop.

This is what I was looking forward to, the highlight of the training… a tour on gas and steam turbine, which operated through Open Cycle & Combined Cycle modes.
I guess I was extremely lucky as Margarita, the gas turbine was undergoing major overhaul. Ahem, I could see all her dismantled components. There were the combustor chambers, the 21 stages of blades on the compressor, the 5 stages of blades for the gas turbine, a portion of the main shaft, nuts & bolts and I could go on & on. As for me, I was just happy clicking away.

Ah, what could I say, a masterpiece. Look at the product of my hard work. Btw, did you’ll noticed the nuts & bolts, one can actually do some serious weight lifting with that.

Apparently, the turbine blade is made of high quality material that can stand high pressure & temperature. Wow, do you know that one blade is equivalent to a Proton Saga? Imagine, there’s 21 stages of blade in a compressor. I was busy trying to imagine the number of proton sagas we can purchase. Bet you don’t know about that, huh?

That’s all folks. I hope that you have enjoyed my journey as much as I have the fun sharing it with you.

Learn from the Eagle

This is something I wrote for one of my department bulletin.

We have launched our Service Excellence 10/10 (SE10/10) on 1st September 2007. Our SE10/10 being the 1st destination is part of our 20 years plan. We have the Eagle representing our intentions, aims and aspirations to achieve our TNB company’s Vision that is to reach Global leadership - to be among the Leading Corporations in the Energy and Related Businesses Globally.

Are we ready to take off like the eagle? Would we be able to endure the hardship of change in order to realize our company’s vision? Let us take a look and learn from the eagle.
The eagle has the longest life-span of its species. It can live up to 70 years. But to reach this age, the eagle must make a hard decision in its 40s. It’s long & flexible talons can no longer grab prey which serves as food. It’s long & sharp beak becomes bent. It’s old-aged and heavy wings due to their thick feathers become stuck to its chest and make it difficult to fly. Then the eagle is left with only 2 options : Die or Go through a painful process of change which lasts 150 days.
The process requires that the eagle fly to a mountain top and sit on its nest. There the eagle knocks its beak against a rock until it plucks it out. After plucking it out, the eagle will wait for a new beak to grow back & then it will pluck out its talons. When its new talons grow back, the eagle starts plucking its old aged feathers. And after 5 months, the eagle takes its famous flight of rebirth and lives for 30 more years.

As our pepatah Melayu says “Berakit-rakit kehulu, berenang-renang ketepian. Bersakit-sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian”. Now what have you learn from this article? How can you contribute in achieving SE10/10? What role can you play?

Self Discovery & Finding the Right Path to Friendship

As long as I can remember, I have constantly struggle with the word friends. I have always attribute to me not knowing how to be a human being so what more being a friend ,that contributes to my dilemma. Thus, the word Friend & Friendship baffle me. After 3 decades & I still could not get the hang of it. What an irony.



I wonder why at times?

Is it because I am delusional, living in my own fantasy of how a friend should be or should react.

Or is itbecause I don’t really understand myself as to what I really wanted from a friend?

Could it be that what I want is something that my friends could not provide?

Is it because of who I am & what I do?

Alternatively is I have not find the right type of friends. But then & again how do we classify what is the right type & what is not?

Do we choose friends? Or is it something that just happen. Well, you feel that you can click with someone & one progress from there. That's where it all begins....



In order to understand better, I have to describe a little bout the type of person I am, what I think & feel. I am emotional, sentimental and i believe caring (over caring is more like it) as well. I dont think I am judgemental. I am happy when my friend let me help in any way possible (my worry is that they dont call me when they need help). It could have been as insignificant as driving them to somewhere to get somethings. I also believe that when you love someone you love them whole heartedly thus I like this explanation on love:
Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude.

It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;
It does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends.



What I want to do is to ensure (up to the best of my capability) that my friends are happy (not hurt), would like them to be safe & healthy (something I can only pray about), to be there 24/7 (if they will only let me).



I think I tend to do things that scares off my friends & I guess it's my problem.
How I tend to scares off my friends that is a long story. So stay tune.....

Sketches

A kaleidoscope

Poems written in the 80s

A kaleidoscope
Changing from time to time
Beauty that’s beyond our reach
And destruction is but a step away

Gazing
What once was Asgard
Dew of tears
Hanging on each scrubs
Dancing happily
Glitters under the moon rays
As the sun arises
Its power exercised
The dew vanishes

Paintings of heaven
Story of the past
A variety of display
An interpretation of the mind

One can see the greenery around
Mountains,
Reaching the skies
Displaying their strength and wisdom
Yet, lost in battle
Lost to the mist and fog that conquers
They lay down their claim
South wind blew
Announcing its forth coming
Mightier than ever
But gentle at heart
As it whisper a message
A message of love
Peace and content
Lost in time

Suddenly!
A loud clash
Thor hammers away
Sending sparks of lights
Across the heaven above
Showers in on its way

A change in the kaleidoscope
Shock to see
The display of modern architecture
Dark and ugly
Grow like mushrooms after the rain
Monotonous
Still and lifeless
Replacing all beauty
Yet to the rich and famous
Glamour and glory
Pollution, stress and disease
Fill the air
Deep down its crying
For beauty was lost
Lost forever
Never to be replaced

A nation’s hope
For a better tomorrow is shattered
For the future generations
Can only see
The display of destruction
The other side of the kaleidoscope
Ponder then
Which side of the kaleidoscope you would rather see?

Knowing You

Poems written in the 80s

Knowing you has made
My life a paradise
Where beauty fills the eyes
Where the scent of blooming flowers
And dews of tears from heaven above
Glitters like a thousand diamonds
Under the bright sunlight
Grass tall like steeple
Grow free and wild
Birds of all kinds
Each with it’s own beauty
Fills the morning sky
Whispering pines
Mesmerized by the enchanting tunes
Dance according to its rhythm
But life, is dead
And eclipse of darkness
Surrounds me
For without you
Birds no longer chirps
Grass once freely grows
Now choke with weeds
Strangling all beauty
Grief and sorrow encompasses me
Each passing moment
Sorrow, mount with great intensity
Like a knife
Slicing deeply into my heart
Life, is yet another painting
A scenery
A scenario of darkness.