I am so tired I could collapse. I am working on analyzing 153 surveys in preparation for an upcoming workshop next week. I am trying to figure out how to analyze and most importantly how to interpret the data. I guess I am stuck. I need to get it done by tomorrow afternoon as I need to see my GM at 4pm to discuss the workshop script. So I am highly stress + all relevant stress symptom is beginning to show.
Last time I used to go asked this friend/colleague of mine. He is real smart & He would help. Unfortunately nowadays, he tend to push me off everytime I tried to seek advice or help. So I am trying my hardest to grit my teeth & maybe drop a few tears due to tiredness & stress. After those depressive thought of failure sets in, I'll try to get this thing done by myself. If it fails, it fails.
Another really bright thing is that next week is the workshop & me and my 3 team members have yet to meet to discuss anything. Well, yes yes I know they are good & 2 are already Sifu but everyone's just not around. Yes I know they are busy. I realised that. Well, comforting thought.....since they are good I shouldn't worried. Like I said, if it fails, it fails, no big deal.
He keeps on telling me, I am already good & etc etc etc. Well, the thing people dont understand is it's not about being me being good or not (which I dont think so) but when we work we need to discuss things with people around us, to bounce idea & etc. Hhhmmm.
All these bad experiences I had at work where at almost 99% of the time I felt that I am fighting battle alone that I have decided after this I will try not to take up these type of workshop. Well maybe once in a extreme blue moon. Well, if other people lead maybe because I know I will support & gave my 101% to ensure success. Unfortunately..... never mind, not important.
I am too poof to work anymore (almost 14 hours of work). I think I will call it a night. Maybe tomorrow things will look better.
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